Anonymous asked: sam are you still tattooing?
I am still tattooing, I manage the shop that I’m at now. I love tattooing, I’ll always tattoo no matter where I’m at :)
I am burnt out on life.
a sketch for a print on my online store. player please…tiger power!
Lately I just feel so completely lost. The shop is slow, and understaffed. Sometimes I feel that the apprentices aren’t giving or putting into the shop, what I did when I was in their position. And I generally feel that, the lack of money I make puts stress on myself…sometimes spirals me into a depression that I hide from everyone else. I would like to just depend completely on tattoos to live. Tattooing has been paying my huge (over) $600 student loan, the cell phone, gas to work, and credit card….but it hasn’t been paying my living. I’m an actual artist…..and in Indiana, or the border of Michigan….the tattoo world isn’t filled with artist’s. It’s filled with shitheads that bought a kit of the internet….that tattoo at home and spread hepatitis. Then some how…. they get a backer, and open what I call a scab shack. I am so frustrated, but I had one senior artist explain to me the only thing that keeps me going. “You made it, you’ve past the apprenticeship, and your in….”- Samuel Ramos
Before I completed one full year of tattooing, I became a Manager….and I run a clean shop. It might not look super pretty, but I’m working on that to. I bust my ass to keep people walking in, and continue to hire actual talent. I might not make this shop a huge success, but I’ll die trying. If in the end I fail….and go back to graphic design…and sit in a fucking cubicle for the rest of life…..I’ll know that I at least tried to do what I love. You know….some people don’t even do that.
Until then, I’ll be a little sad…and give my loving boyfriend some extra shit. : )
Sigh….the shop is becoming slow. Slow enough where I’m discounting tattoos. The only thing that really ever bothers me….Is this… same person trying to hit me up for every discount tattoo I put up. Only willing to purchase anything at the shop….well when it’s super cheap. I always felt that cheap tattoos aren’t good, and good tattoos aren’t cheap. But here I am lowering my prices to continue to have people walk threw that door. Also it seems like….well my crew is turning over at the shop again. It’s allot work for a small shop, that gives so little back. But when I stop and look at the shop as a whole…..I realize it gave me something that I couldn’t give myself. A real chance to tattoo…and growth. Who knows what it will become someday, but I can’t just turn my back on it…or give up. There is always a promise of greener pastors, but trust me….shit always looks better from a distance.
In all honesty, I’m a workaholic. The only thing I have work’in against me….I llooovvve sleeep!